Where to Begin?

If I am sure I am going to make a mistake, it better be a damn good mistake that I have ever dealt with in my life. All or Nothing!

Its been a rough couple of weeks in the battle of losing weight and fighting bad temptations. Three weeks ago I was averaging 222lbs to 227lbs. Now I am averaging 209lbs to 214lbs. I could see a big difference from pictures from a few months ago. People have started to notice to. In some way, I kind of inspired some people to start working on their goals. I feel I am way ahead of my schedule so I’ll push it more further! 205lbs by the end of the month with some muscle definition. I could see my fat melting away and could see my muscles starting to pop out now. It feels really amazing.

This week, I felt like I fell off. I haven’t ran much because of my shins in pain. Most activity I get is from walking every morning. At least I’ve been a little active compared to back in the day where I wasn’t as much. I still get nice random work outs with some lifting but starting May, I am definitely going to take it to the next level. So scales aren’t as accurate as they seem unless I am gaining weight through muscle which is fine. I weighed like 220 Sunday and I get readings from 222-227 through out the week. Anyways, by the end of May, I hope to hit around the 210 area and get some muscle to show. Maintaining what I am doing with myself is so difficult to be honest. So many temptations out there. I am craving hella bomb ass food and I have to fight it. The mentality to fight temptations kind of make me sad. I mean I should challenge myself but not to the point where I am depressed. Maybe I will drink for my co-workers 21st. I need a vacation for the work I’ve been putting into myself.

I just bought a digital scale. In November, from the best records I kept track of. I was around 250 lbs. The scale said today I was 220 lbs! To be honest, I do feel the change. I feel like I could wear some of my used to be tight clothing perfectly without feeling so bleh. Just need some muscle detail and I’ll be ready by June to show off.

Currently I am dying for some pan friend noodles but I can’t. It’s too late tonight for a meal. I am hungry as hell. I thought to myself maybe I am going a little too harsh on myself for having a strict diet. I had three days of the week where it was all just fruits and small meals. I had impulse food during the weekend but I mean I’m just eating less of the bad stuff rather than eating bad stuff all the time. So maybe I should loosen up when and what food to eat. My jog has come down to a walk since my shin pain is killing me. I’m just hoping that my productivity everyday will continue to give me result. Exploring Milpitas is beautiful and this two mile trail that surrounds that park is pretty nice. I want to go learn some tennis or shoot some hoops so I don’t get bored of my daily routine. June 10th is an upcoming All Style Battle which gives me a month and a half to lock down on popping. Two more weeks till my month anniversary. I have an old picture of me at 250 pounds, maybe I’ll have a comparison picture by the end of this month.

I’ve started a daily routine of waking up around 8am. Drinking green tea and eating an apple or banana. I would do about five laps around the block which would almost be a mile. Come back home for some stretches, push ups and sit ups. I would then leave for the rest of the day working or doing other errands. I am now two weeks smoke free and alcohol free except for a tiny sip of a shark bite because it was work related.  My goal was to cut out fast food and try to eat a little more healthier. At work, I usually eat a chicken breast and vegetables. I get hungry so much now but I try to find ways to fight the pain. I cheated twice though because of leftover food at my old home and my sister’s birthday. Hard to resist. My goal this week is to increase one more lap, intensify my workouts and practice floor work for dance.